Ulrike and Olli got to know each other in 1985 on tour of famous German Circus Roncalli. He lives his childhood dream as part of the successful clown duo 'Illi & Olli'. Shortly before she left her life as a nurse in Berlin behind. When the season is over she moves with him to Switzerland. What began like a circus fairy tale arrives at some point in reality inbetween creative crises, child-raising and finally growing older. Today, in his late 60s, Olli is still touring and Ulrike with him. " I should have held on to the chandalier" is a story about a dwindling profession, about artistic self- realization and the sacrifices we require ourselves and others to make for it.